In the previous post, How I Lost My Last 14 Pounds, I shared with you a daily log of what the scale read for SIX WEEKS as I lost the remaining pounds to take me back to my pre-surgery weight. Weight, that for whatever reason, would simply not come off.
What I shared was data — actual numbers on a scale, something women very rarely do!
And as personal as numbers on the scale may be to many, what I’m going to share today are some personal discoveries around what I see as the #1 weight loss sabotager.
I Had Become a Mindless Eater
While on the HCG Program, the food you eat during the low calorie portion is quite specific. This, I liked, because it took all of the guesswork out of it. Here’s what I found:
I no longer nibbled. I ate what I was supposed to eat, followed the rules, which meant there was no nibbling in between. Constant snacking had become a habit. A mindless habit. This was a tough habit to break, but after a few weeks, it was indeed broken, and I’m happy to say, it has not reared its ugly head again.
I no longer used food as a distraction or a ‘break.’ When you’re on your laptop all day long, working/writing, there comes a point when you just want to get up and do something else. It’s not necessarily that you’re hungry, but you want a little break.
My break had become food. I wasn’t eating junk either; my ‘break of choice’ was a handful of almonds or a piece of fruit. But by the end of the day, I had probably eaten close to 100 almonds and 4-5 servings of fruit. A little excessive, maybe?
For my first 21 days on the program, I couldn’t have ONE SINGLE ALMOND. Oh, how I missed them! I was allowed two apples per day. Oh, how I was sick of apples by the end of it! But here’s what I noticed. When I’d walk in the kitchen for my break, I’d quickly remember it wasn’t time to eat, then I’d stop and ask myself if I was even hungry. The answer every time was NO.
So why had I walked in the kitchen, approaching the refrigerator or the pantry? Out of habit. Unconscious habit.
My other ‘break of choice’ was my afternoon cup of tea. Not bad, right? But I was adding close to a 1/2 cup of milk to it. (My cup was mammoth size, requiring a lot of milk… which turns right into sugar. I may as well have been drinking a milkshake!) Only one tablespoon of milk PER DAY is allowed during the low cal portion of this program, then when you go into the following phase (Transition Phase), NO MILK IS ALLOWED. (However, heavy cream is okay during this phase because it has no carbs and no sugars.)
My two daily cups of tea were my biggest challenge. Bigger than the almonds. How would my enormous cuppa taste right without all that milk?! I needed that milk! Besides, tea is more than a beverage to me, it’s a ritual. I actually use my morning cup of tea to do a grounding meditation, feeling/following the hot fluid as it travels down my throat. I follow it in my mind, concentrating on its warmth, as I ‘watch’ it flow through my body, and eventually exit through my feet, grounding me to the earth.
Surely, this experience would not be the same.
I ended up switching my mammoth cup to a much smaller one, one that would accommodate one tablespoon of milk, and you know what? My meditation worked the same! It was just as spiritual, just as grounding, and just as satisfying.
When I emailed my buddy Tony about this tea/milk discovery (because he knew how much I had been dreading this part of the program), I’m sure he could feel my radiance through the email. I was over the top that I didn’t have to give up my Love!
Tony’s response was classic Tony. He said:
“Smaller cup, smaller person. Sweet! When we sort out our preferences from our unconscious habits we regain control over our lives.”
The more we’re aware of our motives and observe our own actions, the closer we become to knowing and seeing and feeling our true selves.
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