One Hell of a Year!

Although today isn’t officially New Year’s Eve, in sticking with my Monday, Wednesday, Friday posting schedule, today’s article has the honor of being the last Trust Life Today (TLT) post of the year.  Why honor?  Because the first post was on January 1st, which means this post will not only finish up the year of 2011, it also completes one year of me writing for you (and let’s be honest, writing for me too)!!

I’ve LOVED every minute of it.

Here are a few highlights of 2011:

January 1 – the first TLT article appeared

January 21 – I retold THE story that changed so much of my thinking and perspective on Trust; it’s entitled Sufi Story.

Month of May – TLT Quote Totes/bags began being carried at all SampleHouse & CandleShop locations around Dallas

May 10 – went in for my first mammogram two days before turning 41 (the rule follower in me just had to check that box while legitimately still 40 years old).  Although I didn’t know it at the time, the journey had already begun.

July 15 – received diagnosis of breast cancer

September 7 – underwent double mastectomy.  Great news!  They got it ALL!  No need for radiation or chemo!!  (But still looking into whether or not I needed to take an oral preventative drug.)

September 28 – received wonderful news that NO oral drug was recommended

December 8 – I received notification that one of my TLT articles would be published in the Holistic Networker Magazine’s 20 Year Anniversary edition

December 9 – received reconstructive surgery, which held the place holder of HAPPY ENDING

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I share this timeline of sorts with you, not entirely to mark the passing of events, but also to reflect on how we are unable to connect the dots before, or often even as they are happening.

As I sit here today, December 30th, I’m blown away.  I’m blown away thinking how one year ago today I hadn’t even written the first TLT article.  If you would have told me then the gratification I would receive from connecting with you, I’m not sure I would have believed it.

If you had told me on December 30th of last year, that within the year I would receive a cancer diagnosis, learn more about a topic I otherwise would still be in the dark about, meet more doctors and attend an unimaginable number of doctor’s appointments, alter my physical body, and through it all, grow more into ME than I would have ever thought possible… well, I’m not sure I would have believed that either.

Here’s the thing.  I had no clue what was coming down the pike for me.  I had no idea to prepare for something as life altering as what I experienced.  Not for myself, and not for my family.  But Life has given me skills.  Precious gifts.

How absolutely ironic that all my years of studying Trust would lead me to write about Trust, only to have me live out Trust publicly here, with you.  Ironic or synchronistic?

Of course it doesn’t stop here.  Life continues with its joys and struggles.  With how I choose to perceive other’s actions, my reactions… ALL of it.  But I must say, Thank God I get it.  Thank God I get how to Trust.

Who knows what this next year holds for me?  For you?  Who knows what tomorrow holds for us, for that matter?  Are you ready to have your actions be led by fear or love?  Are you ready to live your life with Trust?  Trusting there is a greater, Divine force guiding you, even if you don’t know how or why?

So as we end this Hell of a Year, this Hell of a Beautiful Year, my prayer for you is this:

I pray that you lead your life by Love and live your life with Trust.  Amen.