For longer than I’d like to admit, I allowed my addiction to hold me in some odd state of self-imprisonment. My seemingly uncontrollable drive to “be productive,” or DO has been my jagged little pill, with edges ranging from ice pick sharp to moderately smooth, but the pill remains.
Here are some observations:
- it does, on occasion still get the best of me
- the more I’ve attempted to manage, control, coerce, or tease-out through logic, the more I’ve failed
- the more I’ve failed, the more I’ve felt like a failure
So, where is the hope?
Look To The Granite And The Onion
The hope begins in the granite: your foundation, your belief system. (Refer to the previous post for more on foundation—do not skip this part. I spelled out my foundation, as did readers within the comments. You must have a foundation first.)
Next, have you identified an addiction you’re struggling with? It can be anything you feel powerless over, anything you know has control over you.
With your foundation and addiction written down, close your eyes and visualize a granite countertop with an onion sitting on top.
In your mind, take your addiction and wrap it around the outermost layer of the onion. Wrap it so tightly and completely that you can see an opaque layer of your addiction coating the onion. Use your imagination to see the alcohol, the gambling, the sugar, the whatever wrapping around the onion until the ends meet. Picture your addiction permeating each layer of the onion, stopping just before you reach the center. Continue Reading